Swollen hand

Training still went on eventhough the blogging stop.
Last Saturday, was really fun. Had a lot of kumite fighting without gloves. The body are able to maneuver better that way.

But there are still time that you made a misjudgement and hit your oponent.
My hand landed on my oponent's teeth. (So sorry for that~)

Later that day, my hand started to swell.
I did pay much attention to it. Applied some medicated oil, gave it some good massage, that was all. The next day when i woke up, the swelling became worse. I gave it another course of massage and wrap it up. But I am really no good in bandaging. After a moment, it felt very uncomfortable so i took the bandage off. The swelling became smaller, so i left it so. My friend strongly suggest me to ice it, so I did. She said I better get an X-ray done to check whether is there any hairline fracture... So went to the doctor this morning. The doctor suggested the same thing, get an X-ray.

Just like any other regular training, my finger suddenly become numb and i can't feel my finger after gripping into fist for don't know how long. For a moment, I am quite worried, is it something serious. Losing control of a finger at this age is scary, especially it is my right hand.

I stoped my training, telling sensei that i need a rest. Relaxed my hand and keep on moving it, hoping that the sensory will come back.
Luckily it did.

Competition is around the corner. With this, I am not sure how am i going to train...

Today's 一言：I hope it is not something serious...

Piercing pain...

I fought the first round for today's training.

While talking to others after the first fight, some pain suddenly announce its presence.
Some piercing pain lingers at the lower left ribcage of my body.
I cannot breath deeply, i cannot twist my body.

I remember i had this pain before.
But that was so long ago. Can't remember when and how did it went away.
After sitting down for quite sometime, I realize the pain refuse to go away. I force myself up and fought another round. Well, with girl, that is. At least it will be much lighter.

Surprisingly, it feels better.
Another round of fighting, it feels better.
Or is it really better?

The pain still lingers around, refusing to leave.
Perhaps it's just that i got used to it, and are able to continue, even in its presence.

Today's 一言: I know it hurts, but live with it, move despite of it, and you will get used to it.

Falling Down

All of us don't like the feeling of falling down.
Especially falling down yourself.

It is painful, but most of all,
It is embarassing.

Falling down as a junior perhaps is quite alright.
But after attaining a certain rank,
falling down, especially infront of the juniors,
it just don't feel nice.

Pride.

But I still think that holding pride is important.
Pride that push you forward.

Today's 一言: Just recreate your pride, if it is broken

Different Kihon

Was it me? Or today is really tiring?

LeongLok Senpai lead teh kihon training today.
The way he do Kihon is different from the way that I normally do.
One thing that is obvious, mine is more like Kata, and his is more like Kumite.

Had a short kumite fight with Ivan today.
Can't remember the last time fighting with him. But fighting with him is fun.
It is not stressful, it is light, it is fast...
Fanciful technique can come out sometime,
And a downward 'mawashi geri' hit my shoulder.
I didn't see that, nice one~

Today's 一言：Enjoying

Practicing Kata slowly

Light breakfast and ligh lunch.
It just means that I will not be able to do my Kata with full strength.

I am not sure is it the effect of hunger, or my practice is efficient.
In a moment time, my Gi got very much heavier, due to sweat.

Doing it slowly allows me to be vigilant about every move that i made, hopefully every single muscle that i move. Trying to control it to a very optimum point, where the movement is sharp enough, fast enough, and steady enough. Not too much, and not too light.

But with not enough energy store in the body, it is easy to hit the limit.
Although I still have a lot of 'breath', but my muscle can no longer take it.
Shikoudachi, the knee fell inward as I don't have enough energy to push it out.

Today's 一言：Food is important!

Slow 'reaction'

I have no idea why.
Did Kumite today. Been punch in the nose.
It was alright, the fight continues.
The fight ends, i came out from the arena, talking to another guy.

Only after about 2 minutes or may be 5 minutes? Suddenly it started to bleed.

It is not a new case to me. Last time, that happen as well.
Was sparring with a senpai. Got a uraken in the nose.
Finish fighting, went out for sometime, then only the blood starts to show its appearance.

Today's 一言: Smell of blood makes me feel alive.

Sensei's knife hand

Until now, the moment I am typing this, I can vividly remember the feeling of Sensei's knife hand on my neck.

It is a fully controled knife hand.
Moving at a very high speed it came to my neck, but lightly it just touches my neck.
The knife hand stops there, but somehow I can still sense the energy flowing inside the knifehand. Although it is touching my neck already, but there is a feeling that in any second, it can cut through it.

I thought it feels the same no matter whose hand is there.
But I was wrong. When other people's hand was there, I don't feel the fear.

Today's 一言: 気！(Ki, the inner 'inner energy force')

Control

Some of the Juniors are punching without controlling.
Punches are thrown out as hard as possible.
I said control your punch.
He said isn't that we are suppose to throw a heavy punch to intimidate our enemy?

Perhaps in the real situation, it is.
But this is the training ground.
On top of being able to throw a heavy and strong punch, it is important to be able to control it. In every moment, we should be in control of everything, and not let out punch to take over us. We control ourselves, and not let out punches control our actions.

But it is difficult to control!
That is why we need practice.

Today's 一言: You control your own way of walking in the path of Karate.